The One

Walking in an empty forest

Not  a bird in sight

The cold of the snow and wind

Fell upon the night

Searching for that perfect one

I always think I’ve finally found

That’s all I’ve ever really wanted

But, now my hands are bound

My eyes are red and puffy

From the tears that fall each day

So now I’m just left wondering

Why can’t my heart go away?

And now I’m left with a blacked heart

It’s all that you can see

This is all that remains of me

Nothing more, what is more it’s at the least

Now love is like an arctic blast

It freezes as it passes by

And here I remain alone and jaded

Since all I’ve done is cry, cry and cry

p.s. but, I’m not blaming you for what’s gotten into me right now, it’s all on me

Persisting with the Unrealistic

My name I long for you to say.

Do you know just how I feel?

Do you know this love is real?

Sometimes I wonder what you think.

When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?

Do you dream about me every night?

Wish to hug me and hold me tight?

Do you think we’re meant to be?

Together forever, you and me?

These are the questions that run through my mind,

Your way into my heart, you did find.

It drives me crazy as to what I should do,

Should I risk a friendship and confess to you?

Or should I keep my feelings inside,

Keep them locked up, let them hide?

I just don’t know what to do anymore,

My heart it aches, my heart it’s sore.

I love you more than you could know,

And I don’t want to ever let you go.

So even if I’m just a friend,

I’ll always love you until the end.

My Friend

Well, this one was given by one of my friends but I don’t know where it was taken from.

My Friend 

 You have been my friend since High School 

When we both thought we were young and innocent  

We would laugh and stay up all night talking  

We would always have a grand old time  

I enjoyed your laughter, and admired your care free nature 

 You were always honest, and always tried to make life fun and interesting 

 Our friendship turned into much much more than just a friendship

  Ours is a friendship that is deep, something that is rare between friends 

 Something more like “family“ 

 Something that will last a lifetime  

But 

 Somewhere along that road we traveled together  

Something happened that changed my life forever  

Knocking me off that road we shared, and sending me on a journey all by myself  

Alone  

I was looking for answers, searching for who I was  

I started remembering being not so innocent  

Not wanting to laugh, not wanting to skip  

Not wanting to only have fun  

I was alone because I could not let you in  

Could not let anyone in  

Through my search, I have stumbled upon, and found my voice  

The voice that could free me from this hell I’ve erected for myself  

A voice that’s been silenced to long by the shame,  silenced by the denial 

A voice that tells me to let you in, that I can trust you  

A voice that says you will understand  

A voice that tells me I’m not vulnerable to you  

A voice that say’s you don’t pity, blame, or judge me  

A voice that says you can help me, if only I would let you  

A voice that assures me I’m not alone, that you’re still by my side  

A voice that says above all else, that you believe me and want to help me  

And above all else 

 That you are still my friend, still my family 

 I know it’s not easy to listen to certain things, and I know they hurt when you  

love the person that something bad has happened to  

I know you really cannot understand how I feel but sometimes I need you to listen  

Just show me you care,  tell me you know I hurt,  assure me that it’s ok to cry  

How do I not overwhelm you? 

But at the same time let you in?  

I need you to understand  

That I love you  

That I don’t blame you for anything  

That nothing was your fault  

That I want you in my life forever  

That I don’t want they’re to be any distance between us  

That life isn’t just fun and laughter  

How?  How do I tell you this?  

How do I find my voice?

The Right To Be Me

I’m forever hiding in secrecy the feelings lurking inside of my head

For if they knew, no-one would let me be the person I want to be

If I said that they would accept me, I’d be lying

They cannot see how I do what I do

So they shout abuse and leave me crying myself to sleep

But in dreams I go to a place

Where I’m free to be as I please and where all the things I want, I have got

And where my acceptance comes with an ease

That’s only possible in dreams

I’m not fighting for justice or equality

I’m just fighting for the right to be me