My Friend
Posted: March 4, 2009 Filed under: Personal | Tags: Poems, Thoughts Leave a commentWell, this one was given by one of my friends but I don’t know where it was taken from.
My Friend
You have been my friend since High School
When we both thought we were young and innocent
We would laugh and stay up all night talking
We would always have a grand old time
I enjoyed your laughter, and admired your care free nature
You were always honest, and always tried to make life fun and interesting
Our friendship turned into much much more than just a friendship
Ours is a friendship that is deep, something that is rare between friends
Something more like “family”
Something that will last a lifetime
But
Somewhere along that road we traveled together
Something happened that changed my life forever
Knocking me off that road we shared, and sending me on a journey all by myself
Alone
I was looking for answers, searching for who I was
I started remembering being not so innocent
Not wanting to laugh, not wanting to skip
Not wanting to only have fun
I was alone because I could not let you in
Could not let anyone in
Through my search, I have stumbled upon, and found my voice
The voice that could free me from this hell I’ve erected for myself
A voice that’s been silenced to long by the shame, silenced by the denial
A voice that tells me to let you in, that I can trust you
A voice that says you will understand
A voice that tells me I’m not vulnerable to you
A voice that say’s you don’t pity, blame, or judge me
A voice that says you can help me, if only I would let you
A voice that assures me I’m not alone, that you’re still by my side
A voice that says above all else, that you believe me and want to help me
And above all else
That you are still my friend, still my family
I know it’s not easy to listen to certain things, and I know they hurt when you
love the person that something bad has happened to
I know you really cannot understand how I feel but sometimes I need you to listen
Just show me you care, tell me you know I hurt, assure me that it’s ok to cry
How do I not overwhelm you?
But at the same time let you in?
I need you to understand
That I love you
That I don’t blame you for anything
That nothing was your fault
That I want you in my life forever
That I don’t want they’re to be any distance between us
That life isn’t just fun and laughter
How? How do I tell you this?
How do I find my voice?
Your Scratches